朋友！

我喜欢认识新朋友，我也很想认识多些新朋友！

可是我有时很尴尬，我希望人家来找我，我不是不去找人， 而是我没有交通！

每次都需要人家来载我出去， 不过还真是没办法！要不然我自己一个人真的是不懂该去哪里！

就希望能认识多点朋友，大家彼此认识一下都好！这样我就不这么寂寞孤单了！

对了，我快要搬家了，搬去Spring的对面，是一所私人的宿舍！我刚刚打给了那个负责人，她跟我讲说， 我的新房友是个bangla!应该是黑人之类的吧！咳！没办法了！就住吧！或许会成为好朋友有说不定！希望吧！

我想结交新朋友，当然老朋友还是那么好，只是需要多点新朋友罢了！大家加油吧！

想！

很想家，

很想家人，

很想家里面，

很想家里的人，

很想家人的笑声，

很想家人亲切的脸，

很想家里面两老的爱，

很想很想很想很想很想！

在这里的日子，不知不觉又过了2个月，咳！不管怎样，都这样着！快乐也好，悲伤也好，寂寞孤单是难免的！

不能总是要求别人，所以就自己一个人吧！

很快的，我要搬家了！还有1个月！哈哈！算好事吗？从那里走去学校要30分钟，回来也是半个小时，应该ｏｋ吧！不然要怎么办呢？哈哈～就这样吧！也许是快乐的开始呢？

我的心已经萎缩到一种地步了！应该是极限了，不懂，或许再多几次的伤害或刺激，应该就只能这样了吧！很伤，很痛，很容易流泪，很容易感伤，很时常想家！

想着妈妈的笑容，想着爸爸的笑声，想着弟弟们的嬉闹声！声声入耳，让我心痛不己，很想很想！曾经的我，现在的我，应该还是毛毛虫，希望成蝶的日子不久矣！

天亮天黑，日升月落，潮汐涨退，沧海桑田，儿思亲啊！思亲啊！

人说落日之处是天涯，望极天涯不见家！何谓“一片冰心在玉壶”，儿我已是冷碎的心了！痛还是那么痛，快乐还是这么少，自己一个人的时间还是这么多，回家的日子还是那么远！

很想家！T_T

Surprising!

It was a long time ago.

I would like to write it out.

hmm.... one second...

Which is I always complain about my life how Sucks it could be,

but indeed I think it is not that Sucks.

For sure, I am live in loneliness, boredom, those kind of negative emotional reaction.

Instead of that, I might be a little bit confused, isn't this is what I want at 1st.

Yes, this is what I requested, and i only think of its benefit or good part, but I never get to know that living alone isn't that enjoyable, yeap, u have lots of freedom, do whatever u wan!

Online, play computer games, watching drama, movies, comic, novels, but when it never come to an end, u will start to question urself hmm.... may i stop now?

MAY I STOP NOW?

the answer is no, once u carry out this, that is ur responsibility, u need to face the consequences by u urself! deal with it, settle it or die because of it.

Sadly, I was defeated by it before,

of course now still in the period of against-ing it,

but frankly i found that i can be fast and fast recover from it.

However, I still realize that I can easily fall into it deeply, i mean the emotional stuff,

may be just one song, one episode of drama that i watched,

it's like a swampy water, catch me n pull me in,

I couldn't even help myself, and just let it be.

then i know i din't really defeated it, i just may be ignore it or hide it somewhere invisible.

So that i could just live like normal.

Surprisingly, I was get know to one thing which is i need expression. i usually express by singing, but sometimes it isn't work.

or else, i call my parents(Oops, i felt even more bad after i called~ >_<)

they said ask someone to talk(hey guys, u know my problem is i don have any close friends here, who is gonna to hear my stupid story... listen to my complain.. my pathetic rental experience.)

so, i ever cried in my room silently.

I felt like my heart so hurt, painful. felt like wanna vomit, get all the bad stuff out from my brain.

hmm... it was my experience, or i should say: IT IS MY EXPERIENCE!

anytime anywhere

Emotional is my biggest, strongest enemy, but it is also my closest friends over here.

Don't doubt about that, when i was down, it is accompany me,

when i was happy, it is also accompany me,

when i was mad, it is still beside me!

well, so i should treat as my good friends.

So, just now when i was still emo-ing, i make myself think of what i had, and forget about what i lack of, it is kinda useful.

I know that may be i am still stuck inside the swampy water(in my brain),

but i think i am trying to get out of it.

I shouldn't say get rid of it, like a story said.

有一个坑在路上，

第一次那人掉了下去，爬起来，不在意，走开了；

第二次，那人又跌了下去，又爬起来，走开了；

第三次，那人学聪明了，走旁边一点，结果又掉了下去，再爬起来，走开了；

第四次，那人懂了，他跨过了这坑，安安全全的越过了这坑！

I judge myself should be on the third stage, i used to skip aside already,

but still can fall down easily.

hmm...

i know it is quite boring to my life,

notice one thing that which is quite many people want to have my life temporary.

is TEMPORARY!

me too, i love this kind of life,

no homework, no assignment, no limitation of internet usage.

but again, as i said at the beginning of the story,

when it seems never come to an end,

u will start to bother, start to feel wrong, start to complain, start to argue,

n some of the people may have the eating disorder, sleep disorders, or physically discomfort!

well, currently i am still discovering how to make my life better.

i try on cooking, novel-reading, drama-watching, crying, singing, but not studying.

Ain't it funny?

Whatever, now i only know that i am still stuck in it,

so i just wanna remind myself to beware of it.

i expect the surprise, but i have seen the hard time after the happy hour.

So please! remember to beware of it.

Make a right choice n think twice before u make the choice.

a wrong choice may be mess up ur life for a period,

but i believe it will bring u a really memorable lesson!

learn from the lesson!

Besides, a right choice also will bring u a different effect,

anyway, always know that think before u act.

that is what i really need to apply in my life,

but now i think i think too much before i act.

So, work it out!

抑郁症和反社会人格障碍有什么显著的不同？

抑郁症的人是不会伤害他人或社会的，抑郁症的表现是：

 抑郁症是一种情感障碍性疾病，也称为心境障碍。抑郁症主要表现为三大症状，即情绪低落、思维迟缓和意志活动减退，时间持续在2周以上，常伴有焦虑不安、躯体不适和睡眠障碍等。病情严重时患者悲观厌世，绝望而产生自杀企图和行为。 

-情绪低落：患者总是对生活感到悲观，整天闷闷不乐，觉得对什么都不感兴趣。精神压抑，高兴不起来，活着没意思，心理难受，常常哀声叹气，自认为生不如死，度日如年。 

-思维迟缓：自觉大脑反应迟滞，思维闭塞，脑子像生了锈的机器；主动言语减少，说话缓慢，声音低沉，学习、思考问题困难，工作学习能力下降。

-意志活动减退：临床活动缓慢，平时很容易做的事，患病后却感到力不从心，感觉比登天还难。有的整天卧床不起，原来喜欢的娱乐活动不再感兴趣了。 

 具备以上典型症状的患者并不多见，很多患者只具备其中一点或两点，严重程度因人而异。心情压抑、焦虑、兴趣丧失，精力不足，悲观绝望、自我评价过低等，有时很难与一般短时间的心情不好区分开来。抑郁症通常呈现昼重夜轻的节律变化，即早晨起来症状严重，下午或晚上有部分缓解。

 抑郁症的发病原因可能与社会心理因素、遗传、人体的生理变化及神经内分泌等有关，多数情况下是由于受到心理刺激产生应激反应引起的。从生物学的因素讲，人体脑内各神经末梢有一个叫做突触小泡的袋状物，里面贮存着多种能够在细胞之间传递情报信息的神经递质。抑郁症被认为是突触小泡中两种分别叫去甲肾上腺素和5－羟色胺的神经递质减少而引起的疾病。研究表明，抑郁症具有家族遗传特征，患者家族人群的发病率是一般人群的10至30倍。血缘关系越近，患病的几率越高。

 但反社会人格障碍症的病人就不一样了，他主要表现为：     一、定义和概述 所谓人格障碍，是指儿童期或青少年期发展起来的严重人格缺陷，或者人格在总体上不适应的一类精神异常。人格障碍导致不能适应正常社会生活，表现为情感和意志方面的障碍，但是思维和智能方面无异常，意识清晰。这类人的人格缺陷是持久的、顽固的，多数延续到成年阶段，甚至终身不能改变。  本教材持狭义的人格障碍概念，以反社会型人格障碍，即过去称为病态人格的类型作为人格障碍代表疾病，其余的人格障碍基本上归入"性格缺陷"中作介绍。  人格障碍不属于精神病，但是根据传统和实际临床诊治情况，属于心理障碍、精神疾病或心理疾病。因此，在处理方法上与精神病不同，患者对自己的犯罪行为要负法律责任，但是量刑较轻。既然是心理疾病，除了社会教育、管理方法或刑事处理外，还应该接受心理治疗和心理训练等综合防治措施，以减轻症状。  人格障碍应该与人格改变有明确区别。人格障碍是心理发育不健全的表现，从儿童期和青少年期就出现人格问题，至成年期呈现明显病理性人格，并延续终身。人格改变或准确地说继发性人格改变，通常出现在成年期，由于严重躯体疾病、脑器质性疾病、精神疾病或严重精神刺激之后发生的人格偏离。 

二、发病原因与发病机理  病态人格或反社会型人格障碍的病因与发病机理尚未阐明。以下是有依据的相关资料：

1.遗传。本症在亲属中的发生率与血缘关系成正相关，即血缘关系越近，发生率越高。有资料表明，患者双亲的异常脑电图率较高；单卵孪生子的性格一致率较高，脑电图很相似，犯罪率超过双卵孪生子。病态人格的寄养子女与正常对照组相比较，有较高的病态人格发生率。 

2.大脑发育不良。脑电图检查证实该类人格患者大脑发育不成熟，可能有过大脑损害。从病理心理学分析，患者的心理行为具有幼稚、很不成熟的特征，是人格不成熟的病理变化。 

3.家庭和社会环境。不少调查表明，童年的精神创伤、不和睦家庭关系、不良家庭教育方式和不良社会环境因素在致病上亦起重要作用。人类人格形成具有很大的可塑性，特别是在婴幼儿和儿童期，这已是公认的事实。 

三、临床表现  反社会型人格障碍（病态人格）的临床症状特点：

1.早年开始显露人格偏异，一般在青春期呈现明朗化。 

2.严重人格障碍，性格的某些方面非常突出和过分畸形发展，不符合社会规范。 

3.人格偏异非常顽固难移，延续于整个成年期，到晚年可能渐趋缓和。药物治疗和一般教育措施收效甚微，矫正困难。 

4.社会和人际关系适应不良，常有较严重的反社会行为，屡教屡犯，并以损人不利己的结局告终。 

5.对自己的人格障碍缺乏"自知之明"（医学上称为"无自知力"），因此不能从失败的生活经验中吸取教训。有时虽能察觉自己的人格问题带来的困难，但却始终不能以正确的认识来有效地改正。 

6.表现为持久的人格不协调，但是并未达到精神病或神经症阶段。 

7.智能和认知能力较好，无精神症状，主要以情感、意志和行为等人格严重偏离为特征。 

8.追求新奇和心理刺激，常是人格障碍患者的一种驱动力，也是经常导致其反社会行为的变态心理动因。概括地说，反社会型人格障碍的人有"七无"特征：

 ①无社会责任感；

 ②无道德观念；

 ③无恐惧心理；

 ④无罪恶感；

 ⑤无自控自制的心理能力；

 ⑥无真实或真正感情；

 ⑦无悔改之心。 

四、人格障碍的处理

 病态人格一旦形成，不易矫正。因此，必须强调在儿童期和青少年期加强心理卫生教育的重要性，以防日后人格畸形发展。心理治疗和行为治疗有一定帮助，但是难以根治。当患者发生危害社会治安问题时，应予以收容。