Surprising!

It was a long time ago.

I would like to write it out.

hmm.... one second...

Which is I always complain about my life how Sucks it could be,

but indeed I think it is not that Sucks.

For sure, I am live in loneliness, boredom, those kind of negative emotional reaction.

Instead of that, I might be a little bit confused, isn't this is what I want at 1st.

Yes, this is what I requested, and i only think of its benefit or good part, but I never get to know that living alone isn't that enjoyable, yeap, u have lots of freedom, do whatever u wan!

Online, play computer games, watching drama, movies, comic, novels, but when it never come to an end, u will start to question urself hmm.... may i stop now?

MAY I STOP NOW?

the answer is no, once u carry out this, that is ur responsibility, u need to face the consequences by u urself! deal with it, settle it or die because of it.

Sadly, I was defeated by it before,

of course now still in the period of against-ing it,

but frankly i found that i can be fast and fast recover from it.

However, I still realize that I can easily fall into it deeply, i mean the emotional stuff,

may be just one song, one episode of drama that i watched,

it's like a swampy water, catch me n pull me in,

I couldn't even help myself, and just let it be.

then i know i din't really defeated it, i just may be ignore it or hide it somewhere invisible.

So that i could just live like normal.

Surprisingly, I was get know to one thing which is i need expression. i usually express by singing, but sometimes it isn't work.

or else, i call my parents(Oops, i felt even more bad after i called~ >_<)

they said ask someone to talk(hey guys, u know my problem is i don have any close friends here, who is gonna to hear my stupid story... listen to my complain.. my pathetic rental experience.)

so, i ever cried in my room silently.

I felt like my heart so hurt, painful. felt like wanna vomit, get all the bad stuff out from my brain.

hmm... it was my experience, or i should say: IT IS MY EXPERIENCE!

anytime anywhere

Emotional is my biggest, strongest enemy, but it is also my closest friends over here.

Don't doubt about that, when i was down, it is accompany me,

when i was happy, it is also accompany me,

when i was mad, it is still beside me!

well, so i should treat as my good friends.

So, just now when i was still emo-ing, i make myself think of what i had, and forget about what i lack of, it is kinda useful.

I know that may be i am still stuck inside the swampy water(in my brain),

but i think i am trying to get out of it.

I shouldn't say get rid of it, like a story said.

有一个坑在路上，

第一次那人掉了下去，爬起来，不在意，走开了；

第二次，那人又跌了下去，又爬起来，走开了；

第三次，那人学聪明了，走旁边一点，结果又掉了下去，再爬起来，走开了；

第四次，那人懂了，他跨过了这坑，安安全全的越过了这坑！

I judge myself should be on the third stage, i used to skip aside already,

but still can fall down easily.

hmm...

i know it is quite boring to my life,

notice one thing that which is quite many people want to have my life temporary.

is TEMPORARY!

me too, i love this kind of life,

no homework, no assignment, no limitation of internet usage.

but again, as i said at the beginning of the story,

when it seems never come to an end,

u will start to bother, start to feel wrong, start to complain, start to argue,

n some of the people may have the eating disorder, sleep disorders, or physically discomfort!

well, currently i am still discovering how to make my life better.

i try on cooking, novel-reading, drama-watching, crying, singing, but not studying.

Ain't it funny?

Whatever, now i only know that i am still stuck in it,

so i just wanna remind myself to beware of it.

i expect the surprise, but i have seen the hard time after the happy hour.

So please! remember to beware of it.

Make a right choice n think twice before u make the choice.

a wrong choice may be mess up ur life for a period,

but i believe it will bring u a really memorable lesson!

learn from the lesson!

Besides, a right choice also will bring u a different effect,

anyway, always know that think before u act.

that is what i really need to apply in my life,

but now i think i think too much before i act.

So, work it out!