原来只是太久没有了。。

太快了！我每次都太快了！做什么都要快。。

开始的也快，发现缺点的也快，容忍的也很快，爆发的也很快，觉悟的也很快！

我何时才可以不要这么快，如果一直跟自己说是错的人，的确会让我自己很快复原，很好！

可是这很像是恶性循环，如果次次都这样，那我不是累死！

Yesterday Once More

When I was young

I’d listened to the radio

Waitin’ for my favorite songs

Waiting they played I’d sing along

It made me smile



Those were such happy times

And not so long ago

How I wondered where they’d gone

But they’re back again

Just like a long lost friend

All the songs I loved so well



(*) every sha-la-la-la

Every wo-wo-wo

Still shines

Every shing-a-ling-a-ling

That they’re starting to sing’s

So fine



When they get to the part

Where he’s breakin’ her heart

It can really make me cry

Just like before

It’s yesterday once more



Lookin’ back on how it was

In years gone by

And the good times that I had

Makes today seem rather sad

So much has changed



It was songs of love that

I would sing to then

And I’d memorize each word

Those old melodies

Still sound so good to me

As they melt the years away



Repeat (*)



All my best memories

Come back clearly to me

Some can even make me cry

Just like before

It’s yesterday once more

活着真好

我最近很乱，什么资讯都有。。

很乱。。F4, F6...

很烦。。

不过活着真好！

再怎么累都行，活着真好！

13歲女孩在聯合國大會震撼世界的演講

If you don't know how to fix it, stop breaking it.

I am only child, but I know any cents may help.

I am not afraid to tell the world about my point of view.

I challenge you adults, make your actions reflect your words.

thank you.

This is a pretty sad speech, but it's true. This speech was given on June 1992, now is Nov 2011.

It had been there for like my age... hmm.. mankind, realize it and do something.. before it is too late.

开心就好

也没什么好写的。。

真的很想家！还有我希望我要就很聪明，要嘛就笨一点。。

真的很辛苦，什么都记得清清楚楚，什么都这么清晰！

还有为啥我这么敏感叻？给人家说一两句不是很无伤大雅的事吗？

为啥现在却那么在乎叻？犯贱咯！

没有人会喜欢孤独。我们交我们根本不喜欢的朋友，我们吵吵嚷嚷嬉笑打闹不过是为了抗拒孤独为我们准备好的角落。

大部分的时间里，我们在一起，不过是出于害怕无聊。

我最近都睡不是很够，整个人都昏昏沉沉的！今晚真的要早一点睡！

不过最近也很开心。。　哈哈。。怎么样都是这样。。。哈哈。。　开心就好。。　

午夜子时分，

夜深沉，

月盈，

微风，

那淡淡的，细细的，慢慢的，缓缓的，运过来。。。

子时，此时，

夜深，月色，

吾，从何，而肆，顺何，当尔，乱何，管汝，断何。。。

塞外新娘，关外将军，城郊诗人，汝等可思亲？

吾思及狂也，娘亲，父亲，兄弟，乱也乱也，思及。

吾kaki嘛beh zai 哇tulis哈密。。。大辟，哇就喜homesick咯！bueh塞麽？

又是放下吗？

越是不能放下，越容易失去；

越想牢牢抓住，越消失的快。

越想拥有的，常不属于你；

越想把握的，常已失去。

越是看重的，越得不到；

越是在乎的，越抓不住。

那些想要的东西，大都不在你身边。

人生总是在得失中不断循环，随遇而安是一种生活态度。

只有懂得放下，才能掌握当下。

可惜我是很难做到这几点。。慢慢来吧。。我现在还有很多功课要念！处世之道。。。

算了吧！

"Lucky" day~

我可怜的眼镜，不到一年就报销了。。

还是我自己间接造成的！

真的是自做孽啊！

Jeffrey, 如果你有看我的blog的话，我是真的很抱歉，

没能帮到你，反而还让你破费，我实在是过意不去！对不起!!

其实也都是废话，讲这么多，错误都已经造成了。。。

就想想“旧的不去，新的不来”， 要不然能怎么办？

我现在忙到要死，根本都没有时间去做眼镜，那该怎么办。。。我的天。。

我可怜的眼睛，你要自己保重啊！！

你老哥我大概下个礼拜才能带你去做一副新的了。。巴刹又贵。。

没本事啊。。

车的engine oil & oil filter也要换了。。这个月26号，也要再去打那个hepitisis A & B的antigen...

什么都要钱，我看我要去卖血了。。。

这样叫我还敢去拍拖！我会先去跳楼啊！

到了哪里。。。

我不喜欢说话却每天说最多的话，

我不喜欢笑却总笑个不停，

身边的每个人都说我的生活好快乐，

于是我也就认为自己真的快乐。

可是为什么我会在一大群朋友中突然地就沉默，

为什么在人群中看到个相似的背影就难过，

看见风大树木疯狂地掉叶子

我就忘记了说话，看见天色渐晚路上暖黄色的灯火就忘记了原来的方向.

到底走到了哪里。。

咳

对于自由的追求，

我一直都很积极，

毫不怠慢。

但生活毕竟是生活，

而现实也的确是不容抗拒的，

为了生存，

有时不得不接受一些约束，

习惯一些不自在。

所以，当我眼看着快乐，却没办法去抓住，

感到力不从心，为了工作，为了安稳，越来越觉得失去了自我的时候，

就会忍不住的大哭一场，

然后不停的问自己，为什么，为什么会变成这样。

可是很多时候，连哭的力气都没有。。

Servants of people or yourself?

Sometimes we're forced in directions till we ought to find our sounds.

To serve people, it takes dignity and intelligence,

but remember, they're only people with money, not that we serve them, we're not their servants, what we do does not define who we are!

What defines us, is how well we rise after falling.

It really takes us sometimes to think about it and take the next steps!

Friends

This term has frustrated me recently!

Sometimes i found i have no friends, close friends i meant, it is not that easy to get someone close enough with me because how tricky I am and how worse I am.

So i always remind myself that to be strong! To be water, to be liquid!

But I think all of you know that too!

I know that I demand a lot, I complain a lot, that's me, i never try to hide that, but seriously what to do with that, it is my 'weapon'.
It prevents me from getting hurt, it helps me to get what i want, sometimes to get what you want, you gotta be cruel and mean, you may be required to fight or compete with your friends or we should name it as competitor now.

Well, in this case, I will go for what i want, unless it is out of my capacity, otherwise i will do my best to grab it and make it my belonging!

Hahaha... Sounds a little it confused! I have no idea what am i writing now too....

Hmph.... Till the end of story, i still prefer to be alone... For now.. I know myself pretty well that i am not capable to handle others' problem right now...