Strange night

It's a strange night.

Come with some strange but very familiar feeling back into my creepy head.

Intrude into my deep deep deep database, alright, skip those bullshits.

When I was in the BodyBalance with Orly, when he moved on the relaxation and medication phase, I get messed up. In my head, I get used to calm myself down or sort myself up in place that only me and me. ME ALONE.

Relax in the crowd get me freak out and yea, more thinking cracked out.

I started to miss someone that I shouldn't be anymore. After these few years, still that image will come out to haunt me once in a while or all the while, I guess that's more close to the truth.

I was so close, yea, distance between two fingers, to text that someone, not call, is text. Yes, I don't have the guts to call at all. In fact, that someone called me a few times already... Erm... Not that frequent, but I have no idea what that someone wants from me, in the case that we were ended up not in a good term.

But after I think of what happened last time, though time flies, things changed, I don't think people can change their style in just few months.

And so, yea, I didn't do anything at last. It's a strange night, luckily I am not a drinker, or else, I am in urge to get myself "beered".

I am going to turn 21 this year. This world has turned me down so many times, of course, I get cheer up from the other way as well, but it's utterly true that it's a mess. You live good, you live bad, you are going to die someday either, soon or later, you are getting older.

It's a strange night, to lure all these deep locked up pessimistic thoughts back to me, but since I am aware of it, I will keep them locked up later. Just let me finish this first.

I didn't text after-all. and I am prepare to bed and wishing that someone all the luck and blessings. One piece of me must be still with that someone.

It's a strange night.

Shoes? Worth it?

I was so crazy about one shoes like around two weeks ago. Its name is Nike free trainer 5.0.

This is the latest design of trainer shoes by Nike. Ever since I was a little boy, purchase such an expensive branded item is never my thought or possibility.

Hmm. I was so mad about this. Eventually I got it, like I always did. It's fantastic. It's new. It's refreshing. The color is stunning.

I even bought a new shoes bag for it. Just to protect it from getting dirt which it should be.

It's gonna take a little while longer than last time for me to recover this impact on my saving for my next crazy purchase. But I am cool with this one. This is a pretty and this investment is worthy. So far, it does me an enormous favor in terms of protection of my ankles.

Well, ups and downs. I am happy with this crazy act. And yea, once in a while, it was quite entertaining. Especially how I get this shoes. Contact my friends, pull all my resources, call and make reservation, double confirm. Bla bla bla.

Thanks god for the arrangement that I got the size that I can fit in. That's really something miracles and amazing.

I am happy.

Left 4 Dead 2

This is my very first time to approach the pc games, not to mention that I am born lack of talent in handling this kind of violence zombie-killing, strategic planning, and great teamwork game!

Wow, that's what I deduced from this? YEA! Exactly! It taught me that how important is your teamwork, your teammates, and always work in group, so that you can survive till the end.

Technique is crucial but not essential, if you have an awesome backup teammates, you should rest assure, as they always have your back! So far, that's what they did for me, always help me to clean up the messiest crowd while I have absolutely no idea what the heck I am doing inside.

On the other hand, I found it is great to release my stress, it's like killing someone artificial is rather more stress relieving! Of course, you get intense within, while you are searching for that goddamn safe house along the way, wondering how many threats still on their way to haunt us.

Muahahaha! This is great! I am in love with this game. I am not that addicted but I don't mind if I pay my weekly visit to cybercafe for it on every Saturday. That's the best night outing for me so far! =]

I am quite busy and living a damn hectic life schedule now. With all those workloads, studies, my extra bookkeeping piecework and yea, my gym routine, I found myself stuck sometimes, in the midst that I feel that I am actually drowning myself up. Well, I guess I need better time management then.

Like today, I am gonna sit in front of my table to finish at least two months cash vouchers before I can move to the next place yet! I am planning to join the body pump session in gym later. Hopefully I am on-time! =]

I am busy but I am gladly to say so, I am happy and satisfied with my life now. That's what I hope for, last time. To be busy and no time for those unnecessary bothering emotions haunting.

God bless me! =]

Self confidence

It's good to have self confidence.

I have some wrong feelings towards someone close to my circle.

It's not good to feel that way as it leads to confusion and embarrassment.

I may be single for too long. Oh shittt. I should get myself slim down first. Before any of these ideas run into my head. Workout workout workout.

It's almost the time that I should start study. Or else it will be another too late again. Sigh.

Self confidence ar self confidence. I feel old already.