Patience

Yes, patience. Last night was another breakdown. But it's alright. Everything is fine.

I felt like I am all alone and like an single island. Breathless, restless, frustration were all bombarded within myself last night. It's good to let them release the pressure.

I get to know myself better. Everything happens for a reason. How I got where I am now got a reason behind as well. U just need to understand and remember the reason again.

Yea. It's the disgusting feeling. I get disgusted with some people. I get really uncomfortable with. I think they might feel the same either. Because the interaction between people is always a two way traffic.

Therefore, I get anti-social and feel all the way I am now. It's the consequences of my feelings. And since there's the case, I got nothing to be remorsed about.

I love myself. I know I am unique and I am pretty sure everyone else also unique. In the mean time, I just need to be patience. Be patience.

=)

Unendurable

This is hard and this is tough. Realize I only remember and update this whenever I am not having a good time.

Seriously my life was good, it's still fine. But just Erm, I don't know. Or I may know, but I just got no idea what to do about it.

It is really unbearable. I don't feel to talk to anyone. Later I found even if I want to, I got limited or even none to talk to. It's like I lay a concrete wall in front of me, beside me and behind me, I locked myself down.

And instead of breaking down the walls, I get self-sympathy and getting used to those walls. Kind of, sort of, "safe barrier"!

I just went to watch white house down alone. The movie is spectacular! It's impressive, I was impressed by Jamie Foxx. Channing Tatum is charming like always. I just love the way he acts. Very masculine.

After the movie, I got panic. I wanted to get out of the hall as fast as I can. Eventually I get rid of the slowmoving crowd, instead, I walked faster and leave the building either.

Anti social, is that what they called? I am kind of sensitive to the surrounding. Hmm... Like right now, I just feel cool and lonely. It's biting me, the ignorance is biting me.

I am tired now. Really gotta sleep. Life's tough, there's still a long way to go.

蛋饼

刚刚为家人准备午餐的时候，看着那煎锅上的蛋饼突然想起了你，于是乎我问那蛋饼说你是否安好，只见那蛋饼没回答什么，就颜色渐深，突然我了解了什么。

东西要见好就收，不然误了时辰，这蛋饼也成了焦饼，饼糊了，也就吃不得了。

就跟咱俩情形一样的，咱们都误了时辰，都糊了，都吃不得了，最后也都散了。

Random incident in church

多可爱的一个讲员，恶人与义人，
会进来这儿的哪一个不是罪人，
能活着讲话的哪一个没有做过一些坏事，
能走路的人哪一个没有做过一些见不得光的事。

我是罪人、恶人、社会边缘人、任何你认为是该死“有罪”应该被摒弃的人，
但是主让我好好活着，一定有他的意义，所以那些批评谴责你要说多少都行，反正一个礼拜听一次 ，

你开心就好。