Ola August

I woke up on 5.38am just now. Couldn't sleep peacefully and my head is all about the undone job.

Wait a minute. It's that how I project my life would be? It's that how I expected to be feeling about?

The answer is I don't know.

Sometimes I make it like I am so sure or so strong, in fact, I don't know, I just do it and I just, yea, do it. Somebody has to do it.

Wake up in the dark is a absolutely great timing to reflect myself and go through the things. Work, study, love, friends, family.

I kind of miss home now. I hope they miss me too. I've been away for not so long, only almost two months. Lots of things happened and lots of things changed too.

Gosh, why I keep mention about changes, guess I really pay attention to every changes in my life. As I capture them, I acknowledge them. As a matter of fact, I am a very sensitive and insecure guy.

Well, put it in a simple word, sissy guy. Yea, the society like to name a guy which is different from the majority guy, as sissy guy. A guy who buys container, which because that's green to the world, but sissy. A guy who makes neat filling, which easier at work, but sissy cause so faggly (to them, guys should be messy.).

I gonna go shower now. And get my engine moving. Lots to be done for today. Gosh, how I wished I can have a hug or a kiss for me to draw energy from and moving on. Guess all I have now is pray.

Good morning and say hi to August! Please do me good. =)