Rush

First of all, I am single but not available. If this one doesn't work out, I will be single for a while, perhaps a long while.

Hold the expectations of unexpected disappointment to care. Thought I did. Thought I really estimate the degree of the disappointment. Though it is underestimate. It still hurts..

I got so tired, like super tired.

Cried in the car this morning drove to work. Can't hold it any longer. Felt a little relieved but it doesn't help with the big picture.

Well I am so exhausted. Tired at work. Tired at thinking two things at one time. Tired of people reaction. Tired of being tired endlessly. Tired of claiming tired instead I just having a bad mood because some stupid head in my mind.

Hmmmmm goodnight.