Treatment

I went to see a specialist this morning.

I am not sure it caused by stress or simply just its time to have some diseases or infections. But I am not feeling well for quite awhile, despite of the love issue, I miss home. I realize that I always can make choices, however I tend to make choices that don't really draw much positive results for me. I guess I am just an emotional cutter.

And so, I booked my ticket home. I just did. I will be back to Miri on 14th September. All I need now is rest, and rest and more rest. Not saying I surrender to all the big factors, but I guess they will still be there when I come back here. Problems will always be a problem if you don't go and solve them. At the mean time, I need a break and sort things out and some time off are necessary in my condition.

Moral of the story is,
do what you capable of, 
change what you should, 
accept what you can't.

I met with friends, spoke to them and shared our latest news and stuffs.

They told me, they have yet to explore that part of their life at the age of 28+, while on the other hand, I am doing that part at the age of 23. They told me that everything is gonna be fine, just like how I get through the previous trauma, look where I am, and Leon always make it through.

Yea I did and I'll do. But it ain't painless process. God knows how painful it was and how much struggle with tears I had or am having to make it right again. It sounds drama to you right? But I guess drama grabs the example from real life. I cry. I always cry if I can. Tears is not a weakness sign to me. I will cry if it really touch the point, then get a good sleep. Everything feels better after a good night sleep.

I have accepted the truth. As it rides along, I will keep getting better. I don't want to give up. I make up my mind after I've given up for countless times yet I still get up and go on.

Hold onto hope, Love. I've searched high and low for you. Each day gets closer, just hold on stronger to me and you.

Someday soon, I'll meet you.
Someday soon, I'll find you.
Someday soon, I'll know you.