Grown Up

Think of all my past, I realize how childish I was or may be I still am. 

I was too young and apparently unaware of that. I want the attentions and I really favor the discussions.

I shared all my thoughts online, my daily schedule, my current location, basically I just share whatever I have without even thinking "what do I really want? what do I expect? Is that worthy? or is there any point to do so?"

Time flies and things changed, everything was just a fantasy and especially those past failed relationship. 

I watch Ah Boy to Men II last night. Very random one after gym, not to mention I caught the backpain from the body combat and which made me excruciatingly irritated. 

Well, it sort of brought me some new inspirations, I mean the movie itself, despite those bad culture which we all know pretty well, since we used to practice it in our own daily living, don't you dare to exclude yourself from this! HAHAHAHA!!! 

However, there are pretty lots of good stuff inside. Though I don't really get too influenced by now. After all that I've been through, you ought to learn to set a boundary within yourself. You ought to know that everyone has their own style of living, the most comfortable way to survive themselves in this cruel and realistic world. 

We have tonnes of moral value, the question is how much could you possibly posses, or present or could you manage yourself to please everyone at all time. For me, that's pretty impossible and unpractical, though I aware of how rude I was and I still am, selfish, heartless and bla bla bla, long list to go. 

It's not issue with the independence, we all grown up to be a person whom can contribute to the society, to the county and even to the mankind. Sometimes I think live simple and calm is it, do not create problem for others, unnecessary one, life's tough and life's good as well. 

I deduced quite an amount of thoughts from the ABTM2. It's pretty touched, very touched. The moment when Joshua Tan(Ken Chow) read the handwritten letter from his partially-paralyzed-dad, he cried, I cried too. 

I remember his dad written "Son, your dad is half-paralyzed now after I suffered from the strokes and I couldn't speak fluently and so I written it all down. Ever since I am paralyzed, I just aware how lucky and truly blessed I was to be able to walk like normal, to move like normal. Son, do things when you are still capable to do so, but not until one day, you can't do it anymore even though you have a great intention to. It will be too late"

Some sort like that, I cannot quite recall the exact paragraph, but the core is there, do while you are able to do, don't mess up because you just want to mess up. 

I am going to turn 21 this year, very soon, I will be finish my ACCA as well. I don't know where my future gonna take me to. But yea, do while you are able to do. And I am so truly amazingly blessed. 

We've encountered many many inspirations almost every single days from the surrounding. But we only need to select those works for us to stay, the rest we can just let it go. Please Don't be too HARSH on yourself, no man is perfect besides Jesus. So we gonna learn to let go, that is a huge lesson too. 

I think I've been written too much here, though I've been away from this blog for really long. Guess that's not the point.

Remember life's good and it's pretty short too. Smile always. It's okay if you are emo, but try to limit it for a certain period of time, or else you are wasting the precious time for you to be happy instead. 

Anyway, just be yourself and live your life. The rest just left it to God. 

Cheers.

Leon Lai
16/03/2013