Faith

Starting with this title is kind of heavy to me. I am sticking with it all the time. I am talking about the believing part. I ought to do that.

Life is just so tough until you can't even breath properly. You forced to hold your breath sometimes. Faith, that's what the people said you know. In the dark times, people started to lose their hope.

As we all know, hope is the only thing that drives us to move on. Without hope, you won't work, you won't run, everything would just be meaningless, ain't ya agree with me?

I do have hopes either. With that believe, I keep my mouth shut, literally try not to fight back with the unnecessary talk same goes with the unworthy man. Fat man in precise. It's unedurable I must say, all the time.

Most of the time I just keep silent and act as a deaf. Hear nothing and react nothing. I am who I am today because the faith that I'm believing in. God brought me into this. I am pretty sure he is sticking with me through this too. I gotta find out the meaning within.

That's why I am still bearing with it. I ain't a good man. I am mean, and I got a limited numbers of friends either. I am usually alone. I am sad about that sometimes. However, most of the times I rather stay alone by myself. Because I am thinking.

Thinking of what? The plan. The steps. The schedule. Or nothing. I need the time that I am totally only to myself. No others around. It's me gonna stick with for the rest of my life. We all do need to learn to be alone sometimes. I told myself that. And then I allow myself to just be alone.

Faith. It's the thing that drives me everyday. I am holding onto it so tight. I do doubt about myself once in a while. But I stop that immediately. I couldn't risk to doubt it and if I found out that it is wrong, it is misleading. I can't.

May God be with me. I am used to be self centered. Now I still am. May God be with me. That's all I ask. Have faith.