Failing

08/08/2013

It is the worst yet the best day ever happened on me. On this day, I failed my exam for the very first time. It's like the end of the world.

I see it though, before I acknowledge the actual result. I kind of like foreseen it. But people, greedy like me, tend to hope to count on some unrealistic and unreliable luck.

I wasn't even study for this paper honestly. I deserved what I got. But the point is why am I so upset? I guess I really got overthrown by my luck for the previous passed papers.

I scored 47 in this audit paper. Thinking in a positive way, the examiner did acknowledge my talent. At least my writing, hey, a candidate without study through the whole text and just seems to apply all what he got and draw from common sense, 47 is a compliment, perhaps an establishment.

I am not joking, I am serious! I am happy on the other hand. I finally fail, eventually, though I never know that I couldn't take it so easy. But I survived. I am still breathing here and popping out with so many stories here. Apparently, I am at least 80% recovered.

Why would I say it's the best day to me either. It taught me to be humbled, no man is undefeatable, you just gonna be prepared. The God of luck isn't always on your side. I guess I learned something today.

I attached my results slips here together as a reminder that to me and to everyone, who may concern, study, you gotta be prepared. Or else, one day, soon or later, it will come down on you. Unexpected way, perhaps unknowingly destructive towards your confidence or even your academic achievement. I sound so like bullshitting now, in fact I am.

Anyway, this is my first fail in Acca. Hopefully the last as well. God bless.