What if I have an amnesia too?

I haven't update this side for quite sometimes. Had been really busy these couple months. Things just keep show up and buzz my head off. 

Though, I got them all resolved. 

Happened to listen to some old song tracks that I kept in the old hardisk. Remind me of how time has passed. I mean, without those memories, I have completely no fucking idea how I got here, where I am now. 

It has been 2 years, should be more than that, approximately 2.5 years. I still not yet get over it. The shadow of darkness still haunt me once in a while, once in a very while now. 

Now I got my routine in Kuching. Work, study, gym, leisure activities, food. Practically I got a life here already, and it is really nice. What drive me into some dead-end is the loneliness that visits me quite frequent these days. 

No idea, how could it be, but it's true, feel so lonely sometimes. But when I think of partner, shhhew... go away, bad idea. I am not interested now. 

What if I have an amnesia too? forgot 5 years of memories in my life, so I will be go back to 2008, before I complete my SPM, wow, it will be hard for me, I wouldn't know that how I finished my SPM and all in a sudden, I am ACCA student already. 

And in that case, I will be still a virgin..... of love. haha... 

Perhaps I wouldn't be happier, I might just get very confused and hate again my life. True, if you are an unhappy person, no matter how's the situation turn out to be, you will still be able to find the unhappy part out of the happy part and make yourself unhappy, same goes to happy people. 

Bright and dark are always come along. Well, I seem to bullshit again. 

Guess that's all. I miss someone again, but I've decided not to disturb other people's life. So yeap, keeps that promise sound. 

Goodnight. 

18/11/2013