The first day of 2014

The first day of 2014, I woke up early, around 11.04am, in Taiwan, the weather is good, it hasn't been that sunny to us before after our arrival on last last week. 

My post has nothing to do with the Taiwan trip actually, just I haven't been writing for a few months, I am simply bullshitting myself to gain back the kick to write. 

I haven't update my diary for months too, been busy, been away? Lots of excuses, but same case here, Iam not inspired to jot down anything so far. Life's been filled with ups and downs, same goes to what happened before, I love to drown myself in an embarrassing situation. 

Upset myself at the same time let myself to think back how crazy I was. It's dangerous and I know perfectly that it did me nothing good but influence my mood and make me down all day long. Just couldn't help myself sometimes, can you get it? Would you understand how miserable that is? 

On the other hand, I am grateful for all these happenings, a year has gone by, unknowingly, I can't actually acknowledge how much that I've accomplished in year 2013, it's empty so far. Perhaps, I can say joining a gym/fitness centre is one of my accomplishment, it's one of my best decision ever! 

Love? I am still an amateur at it. Never really get a clear clue on it, in the end, I am still single, people claimed that I am choosy, but come on, I am the one who is fat and fat, yea, very fat, I am choosy? -______- that's a humiliation, an accusation! >.<

Talking about works, I will hit three years in the same audit firm, I planned that I will suffer myself in an audit firm for three years then probably I will left to some other higher pay job, so far, unknown yet. Sometimes, I can't see where is my future. The answer I get from others are vary, some said it's within your hear, some said please pray, God has His arrangement. 

I chose to ignore so far. What I understand is, no matte wherever I would like to go, I should at least equip myself with a proper degree, at least I should complete my ACCA, get myself a status of Chartered Accountant. 

I go back to that February a lot, and it made to me very clearly that time couldn't be rewind, like what they said, let bygone be bygone. It still haunt me sometimes, apparently most of the times, whenever I begin to write something, the paragraph always including this. And I still keep it inside my heart with me. I am crazy. I was young and it was rough, it tattoo on my heart profoundly. 

Argh! Don't bring me down today! I still have to go out and visit this beautiful town for last few days. Two more days to go, then I will go back to the hot and sweaty country of my own. Should enjoy myself a lot over here. 

I didn't meet up anyone over here, practically due to the lack of internet service I have on my cellphone, well, I am pretty sure I will come again, and that issue will be resolved on my second visit. I am sure that's a way when there's a will. 

Last but not least, I have no regret on committing any mistakes, I did all things with purposes, whether it's good or bad, neither coincidence nor fated, it's my choice. I shall live with it, learn the lesson from it. I appreciate every thing in my life, thanks God that I have a happy family, argh, I am crazy again. Anyway, happy new year 2014! I will live it good! :) 

01/01/2014
Leon Lai