New chapter

Lately there's an incorporation of changes in my life. I resigned from G.H.Ee Dan Rakan Rakan and I am work in a new firm now.

I consider it as a step up. You know? When there's a change, there ought to be challenge, there ought to be struggle, there ought to be tears and fights, there ought to be mercy from God.

I am currently undergoing all these things. So far I found myself not coping with it as well as I anticipated. Perhaps I conclude that might be due to the overextended period that I've let myself stay in the comfort zone and loss the inherent ability to adopt and accustom.

But we are all God's creatures. Especially human, we are based on the image of God while we were created on earth. Inevitably, undeniably and unquestionably, we are born to live, born to love and get through all these.... OBSTACLES!

There's a part deep down in myself that. I only aware of it not so long ago, I hated myself.

Yes, I HATED MYSELF.

How I interpret this sentence is that I love myself too much. The amount of love is equally weighted as hatred. You can't just hate someone without putting some attention on him or her. Hatred is the opposite image of love.

Alright, I started to bullshit again.

I am very struggle at new firm now. Everything is new to me, the system, the people and the environment. Well, I will get used to it.

In church now. Lack of idea what to wrote here anymore. Life's good. Again, if I didn't purposely mess up with it.

Find myself able to cry again. How grateful.