There were times.

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Last night, I had a dinner with friends. It's usual, just dinner. But it made something clear to me. I am finally partially over it. Now I can talk about someone peacefully, now I can listen to our songs or my song calmly.

That's how powerful the time is. It heals almost everything. Either bury it deep deep deep under or let it become scar and recover someday. It's just feel so much better now.

I miss that someone but it's impossible to go back. Maybe didn't workout for two days start to get me some side effects of being emotionally unstable due to the excess of my body adrenaline.

It was nice dinner. Without burden and just talk. I wanted that. Instead of some negative shits. Or some quiet shits. What did you expect? Let myself talk all the way. Crazy.

I changed a new job. Technically speaking it's just being more specific and more focus on one part. Or else generally I am still hanging on the same industry. Not much difference after-all.

All the colleagues are being nice to me, as far as I concerned. They are being nice to me and that made things get easier. And since the things are likely the same, so yea, the practice is there so so far so good.

Therefore, go back to friends. I manage to make a few new friends, unfortunately I am really a lousy maintenance body. Most of the times I am occupied unless I am in the situation like now. I get hurt and so no gym for me these few days.

I can't always check in and out with them. It's exhausting and I am fed up. For some, they just expect me to put aside all my stuff and go hang out with them. That's unfair to me and to my stuffs.

For some, they just seem to desire more from me, WTH. I am poor, what could you possibly desire from me? I can't drink. I can't smoke! And the hilarious thing when they didn't get what they desire from me is that they disappear. Yeap, how cliche. Just disappear.

It's a Tuesday morning and I am lying on my bed. Thinking of something sad and something happy. Weather is good to stay in bed. Still wondering I should study or drive to beach and relax for this holiday or what.

Well, we'll see later.