Tremendous

I doubt about it sometimes. I often hold a doubt towards it. But you know things that you pay effort everyday, it gonna bring you something in return, good or bad. Luckily, workout is the one which bring more good than the bad.

Gym is my salvation. I've repeated this over and over again.

Yet, I still need a home to release, to unleash my fear. Not sitting in the car, and cry silently. It's the most painful thing that I ever did.

To hold your breath. To tell yourself it will be alright. Things will be fine. When nothing seems right. Yea, I've been through it like thrice.

It still bite me hard. EVERYTIME.

I want to go home now.

I want to go home now.

I wish to go home now.

I forgot, I don't have a "home" here.

I forgot, I only got a room here.

I forgot, I was alone

and I am still alone here.