Clingy

I knew one day I would write something for this topic. Clingy. So ironic. Clingy.

Question throws back to myself. Am I clingy? I would say yes. I am clingy kind of person. If I am not when I am with you, then probably you are not someone I can rely on or not reliable enough.

People tend to be clingy when they find someone more capable or reliable. Do you agree with that? It's like you'd be clingy with your parents. You'd be clingy with your partner. Your children will be clingy with you.

Clingy has nothing to do with independent in my opinion. Be independent is everyone's natural outcome. Surprisingly independent people will be clingy too. They've been strong or brave for so long. They need some soft times as well.

I am clingy. I need to get my partner close. Not as close as in the bed but within my parameter. Is that a right word? Not so sure. But I wouldn't like to be too far away. Of course certain distance is to be kept to ensure the personal space is secured.

After dating for awhile, you would agree with me that keeping a distance is great for the both world. Getting too close give rise to dry and tough relationship due to there's no more mysterious part to share.

Some partners they can, super close. Like day and night stick together. But until certain stages, they split either. Not breakup but got themselves some me times to do things they would like to do it alone.

I will be clingy. I will be childish. I will be thinking too much. So far these are what I have discovered from myself. From past experience. It is weird to share it here but nobody cares. I learnt to be independent from my daily life. When nobody you can count on but to be strong.

Draw strength from the unknown. Gain strength from quality sleep. Though I didn't have much lately. My body weight has increased significantly due to my unhealthy lifestyle. But anyhow I love myself. 

I am just living my life. Guess it has yet to reach a point to get me to change yet. Hmm... I wish I can be not clingy. Perhaps one day. When things get so cliché and got tired of it like all the rest, find that clingy or not things work out the same way.

I kind of worry that too. Am I gonna turn out to be those I have hated once? Are we? Those you've said to be ignorant? Are we shaping ourselves to be one? Are the norms of society really change us? The power of influence is intimidating.

Too overwhelmed when you actually think of future development. Countless outcome could have taken place. Let us hope for the best. For who doesn't. May God bless us all.