Something like love

What is love? What is it actually? A sense of pleasure or what? Is sex a kind of love? Isn't that should be lust?

Lately I am stuck in things like this.

I don't know. What do I want? That's the question you know. Some seek for money or in another word, security. Some seek for companionship. Some simply seek for the feelings of being wanted.

I find saying I love you is so ironic now.

Not sure what am I saying or doing now. I don't want my 20s become all empty with experience left but nothing significant to remember.

It's like my 19. I hardly know what had happened back then. It's all empty. Of course something happened as I become who I am today. Hmm...

Is that something like love between us?

Are we moving too fast? Do you know who I am? Do I know you well enough? Are you sure I am "the one"? After a while I find "the one" is so hmm... Subjective.

I leave those questions open. I know I will find the answer in time.