Destiny

You know how scary is to compromise? One minute you are still going to insist to be where you were, the next minute you are willing to die for someone.

This ain't the first time for me. In fact, it has been three times or more. I started to acknowledge how this feeling goes. And I realise that any relationship before I'm actually ready is not love, but an experiment.

I know it's wrong to conclude a statement in such a harsh way. But it is a valid theory for me. Some said there's never a valid time as "you are ready", we are always getting ready and adjust as we move. I second with that point of view too.

What I meant for "I'm actually ready" is the fundamental part of the whole structure. I'm at the age that there's so little I can do. Little that I should focus on finishing my ACCA and get my qualifications first. Ensure I am self sufficient then I'm actually ready to roll with it.

I always do it the hard way, but I learnt the most out of it. I know that I can't be alone for too long, but this is a time that to understand that single doesn't equivalent to loneliness. I have so much to do and color my life.

I keep sigh when I type this. Because I am sleeping next to the person I am typing for. The more I try, the more I realise how powerless I am now. It's not that I can't, but it isn't the time. This is not fairy tale, but in reality, it needs more than just love to keep it.

I am gonna jot down the more personal part in my diary. 无奈我看懂彼此只是彼此的过客，动情是容易的，因为不会太久，好像很近可是还是很远。我会把最初的感动深埋心底，感谢上帝，我想我了解了某些事。

Destiny, destiny, destiny. What it meant to happen, it will happen. What it meant to be, it won't run away. I appreciate yesterday and last night and today. I know everything will be back to where it was later in the afternoon, but this warmth will keep me going.

在一个还没有能力保护爱情，把握爱情，牢住爱情的时代，遇见谁都是过客，再爱都要别离。或许未来当阳光正好，或任何时候，我有能力之后，我一定不会让你离开我。
其实到某一个点，真不明白爱是什么，我想靠近，我只想陪伴，然后一起为了一些彼此都想做的事，努力，一起走下去。我不想要速食爱情了，thanks God for the realisation.