Mysterious

Just happened to go browse through a few people facebook in less than 10 minutes. I hide them away from my news feed.

Yea, once again prove what I did is appropriate and correct. Sometimes, something we need to leave them undisclosed, better keep it mysteriously, it looks better. I am not saying that we should hide away things.

But just, quote from unknown source, sometimes it's better to know less than know more. The knowing part will be the part that kills you. That's true I supposed.

I got influenced for a little while but I realize that it got nothing to deal with me and yea, it's clear. Since it's irrelevant to me, so no bothering then. Life's too short for me now, unlike the me in previous year, seemed to take everything on my shoulders, even those irrelevant stuffs. And got myself collapsed.

It's good to update myself with the news and those changes. It's shocking news too for me to reconfirm that someone has came out of the closet. Does his family know that part of him? Again, none of my business right? As far as I concern, it's only be me. That's all.

It's a hot day and cloudy. It seems to rain heavily in the afternoon. Hopefully.

I am tired and feel a little bit sick today. Guess no gym today then. Tomorrow I have bodyjam session. Will be prepared for it. Yays!!! =)

Weather

These few days, oh I am sorry, have no idea since when, the weather became so uncontrollable and it seems to exaggerate every simple move.

If it is raining, it rains non-stop and sibeh heavy. If it intends to be sunny, then the heat will just spread to the land without limitations.

I don't know what bullshit am I saying. All I wanted to say are the weather has gone rogue. We ought to drink more water and be extra careful with our own healthy issue.

It's very easy to get heat injury under this kind of weather. And regards the super humid indoor space, we ought to increase the air circulation perhaps by putting more fan blowing here and there. Viruses are very likely to spread around at this humidity level.

It's super hot out there. If I have other options, I won't go out. Luckily I got class until 5pm today. Will just fully utilized the aircond of my college.

So hot!!! 

Strange night

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I was listening to the radio, and the Dj was introducing this number. It got me in the first few lines from the very beginning of this song.

I miss someone. Though there is zero possibility, but it's good to know that I keep part of it deep within. Eat with me, breathe with me, and live with me.

I miss that someone so much. And I understand it must be time for me to rest, only when I am truly tired, then the emotional control will be a bit loose.

Life's like this. Goodnight

Raining in the morning

It's Thursday, but it made me feel like Friday because tomorrow is a public holiday and I am so honor that I can't rest. Something related to my performance in the annual dinner just happens to occupy my holiday at the very last minute.

Anyway, it's a lovely morning as it is raining out there, the indoor space will be damn comfy and very chill. But!!!
Please drive carefully.

Just now I was almost involve in an accident. The car in front of my car just stop all in a sudden. Luckily I got my brake fixed so I can pull over to react to it very fast. Then I just realize the front car just kiss on someone's car ass. Owwww .. very unfortunate.

I ought to admit I am happy at that second that it wasn't me who got involved. I feel ashame later. Haha.... I should feel sympathy to them.

Anyway, it's very slippery road out there. And please just drive slow and watch out for all other drivers on road, some might be new hand and some may be their car brake system aren't in place, I don't know. Just be extra careful.

It's a lovely morning I repeat. It is lovely.

Leon Lai
28/03/2013

Personal

You made it so hard on me and I ought to admit that I am hurt. That's very hurt when you made that sentence unknowingly.

I wasn't that care at that moment. Because I think of how "smart" you are and how "efficient" you are by looking on your performance and understanding on your works.

Hmm... I did it with a good intentions. Lack of initiatives, lack of ideas, lack of motivations, lack of almost every criteria. I just don't get it. So meaningless. How could you guys possibly live like that. That's crazy man, I can't even imagine that on myself.

It's something really personal when I heard "bo kuan" from others. Make sure you have possessed a very decent "kuan" to me before you made that silly judgement on me. Let's try I called others Bitch just simply because they laugh, does it link the case to you?

Well, that's pretty much from me. I have been very busy lately and live a really hectic life. Practically my life only revolves around work, study and gym. Very standardized and systematic. Try to balance the things up. My career, my education and my health. Three major part of my life. Things change right?

It's almost the second year I worked in this company. Hmmm.... Learnt a lot and still continue to learn more in every tasks assigned. Well, been through a lot, co-workers without the basic respect, friends with benefits and yea, great friends with understanding. Life's like this, comes in all its way to prove how amazing and how mysterious it could be.

And it's my forth year here either. Four years, many things have changed. I strike to maintain who I am, I got my own attitude to stuffs, I do. I believe anyone who know me will know that. And I will say that I don't care either if you hate me, because afterall, who are you, is none of my business. Might as well just mind my own very matter and focus on those constructive sides.

Along the way, inescapably, I offended some, or a lot. Yea, many persons. Sacrifice, part of learning too. Who asked I am borned with such a rude attitude and straight forward personality. Can't hide it and so I show it.

Well, I have shared plenty of my "personal" life in this. I just want to reemphasize that I have my own "kuan", better judge yourself first before you said that on me. I am so petty heartedly care about that.

Thank you.

Leon Lai
25/03/2013

Unique

Uniqueness. Everyone is different in their own way, own special way. Sometimes, we all have to admit that we hate ourselves.

Okay, I mean myself. I hate myself sometimes, quite frequent back in the days. You know why, because I keep compare myself with others, of course with those good looking, smarter, fitter, everything better than me. Well, it won't last long.

Soon enough, you will find out they have their own weakness too. Be yourself is the point. We all designed differently and we need to appreciate that. I have ignited part of it within me.

Alright, what I said earlier on is all bullshit. We are meant to be different and we are meant to be compared. Only through comparison, we can only know what we are lacking in and then which part of us can be improved right?

Yea, some of us will claim that it's unfair. Yea, it's unfair from the beginning. What can you do about it? Change la! Abuthen! Sit and wait for miracle to happen? That's very irresponsible way of living.

Anyway, we are all unique. Special and embrace our lives as it is. If you don't like it now, do something for it. Or else, just suck it up and move on. Our generations really good in complaining and know how to enjoy without those hardworks. Very fragile and impractical thinking.

But not all of us. For some, we still need to work hard and smart to get the fruits.
Manage to stay true to yourself and always keep in mind that you are unique and deserves to live happily. Every single day.

ENVY

Guess everyone has that feeling once in a while right? 

Envy, jealousy, I feel it quite frequent. Perhaps due to my self-pity attitude, which is absolutely pointless. 
Anyway, my point here is envy, is it good or is it bad?

I think it's good. At least so far what it does to me is just keep me moving and keep me motivated. I am not saying that my motivation power were all draw from envy, but I must admit at least 40++% of it contributed by envy.

I wanted to be better, I wanted to be treated equally. And I am so envy of those who got more but less work done has accomplished. That's not fair but that's how it works in this society. Fair or unfair is up to winners to decide. 

Be yourself, I am being myself, despite my shape, which definitely not who i am , it's just temporarily undercover. I will fix them and shape myself up. =) 

Frankly speaking, I wanted to feel emo now. I feel so tired and bursting, I wish I can be emo enough and tear myself up. However, too bad, songs, movies, old diaries, bla bla bla... couldn't make me feel anything. I am so senseless now ar!!! 

I was in a very awkward situation just now. In a crowd of relatives, blood-related relatives, but I couldn't recognize them. They supposed to be my most familiar relatives, but too sad that I couldn't remember their name either. There was, like, something sort of like a gap between us. 

Hmm... Still no emo, just sad for that. I think I understand how I treat my problem or feelings now, if I can settle that problem although it would be very hard to do so, I will settle it accordingly, so no emo. 

On the other hand, if something I cannot settle at all, it's gonna be a disaster that totally mess up. I will leave it behind, or just leave my hands off. so no emo again. 

The only emo that still work on me, I guess is that person. my ex. 

I am bullshitting again. That's all. 

I am exhausted. Let's call the night. 

Goodnight. 

Leon Lai
16/03/2013

Grown Up

Think of all my past, I realize how childish I was or may be I still am. 

I was too young and apparently unaware of that. I want the attentions and I really favor the discussions.

I shared all my thoughts online, my daily schedule, my current location, basically I just share whatever I have without even thinking "what do I really want? what do I expect? Is that worthy? or is there any point to do so?"

Time flies and things changed, everything was just a fantasy and especially those past failed relationship. 

I watch Ah Boy to Men II last night. Very random one after gym, not to mention I caught the backpain from the body combat and which made me excruciatingly irritated. 

Well, it sort of brought me some new inspirations, I mean the movie itself, despite those bad culture which we all know pretty well, since we used to practice it in our own daily living, don't you dare to exclude yourself from this! HAHAHAHA!!! 

However, there are pretty lots of good stuff inside. Though I don't really get too influenced by now. After all that I've been through, you ought to learn to set a boundary within yourself. You ought to know that everyone has their own style of living, the most comfortable way to survive themselves in this cruel and realistic world. 

We have tonnes of moral value, the question is how much could you possibly posses, or present or could you manage yourself to please everyone at all time. For me, that's pretty impossible and unpractical, though I aware of how rude I was and I still am, selfish, heartless and bla bla bla, long list to go. 

It's not issue with the independence, we all grown up to be a person whom can contribute to the society, to the county and even to the mankind. Sometimes I think live simple and calm is it, do not create problem for others, unnecessary one, life's tough and life's good as well. 

I deduced quite an amount of thoughts from the ABTM2. It's pretty touched, very touched. The moment when Joshua Tan(Ken Chow) read the handwritten letter from his partially-paralyzed-dad, he cried, I cried too. 

I remember his dad written "Son, your dad is half-paralyzed now after I suffered from the strokes and I couldn't speak fluently and so I written it all down. Ever since I am paralyzed, I just aware how lucky and truly blessed I was to be able to walk like normal, to move like normal. Son, do things when you are still capable to do so, but not until one day, you can't do it anymore even though you have a great intention to. It will be too late"

Some sort like that, I cannot quite recall the exact paragraph, but the core is there, do while you are able to do, don't mess up because you just want to mess up. 

I am going to turn 21 this year, very soon, I will be finish my ACCA as well. I don't know where my future gonna take me to. But yea, do while you are able to do. And I am so truly amazingly blessed. 

We've encountered many many inspirations almost every single days from the surrounding. But we only need to select those works for us to stay, the rest we can just let it go. Please Don't be too HARSH on yourself, no man is perfect besides Jesus. So we gonna learn to let go, that is a huge lesson too. 

I think I've been written too much here, though I've been away from this blog for really long. Guess that's not the point.

Remember life's good and it's pretty short too. Smile always. It's okay if you are emo, but try to limit it for a certain period of time, or else you are wasting the precious time for you to be happy instead. 

Anyway, just be yourself and live your life. The rest just left it to God. 

Cheers.

Leon Lai
16/03/2013

生活智慧

四個簡單知識：噎到東西、落枕、腳抽筋、腳發麻
這個請大家千萬千萬要努力傳哦，因是個知識，可以教人，也可以救人哦！

救命的方法分享：
１.噎到東西
只要「把手舉起來」
美國紐澤西州大西洋城五歲男童史賓斯，機靈地救了祖母一命，他的方式很簡單，只要「把手舉起來」！
五十六歲的雪兒丹恩史都華日前在家一邊看電視一邊吃果凍，當史都華轉過頭時，一塊果凍卡在喉嚨。她試著擠壓腹部自救，但沒有用，
此時孫子史賓斯問：「奶奶，妳噎到嗎! ？」史都華說不出話。
「我猜妳噎到了，奶奶，把手舉起來，把手舉起來。」
史都華照做，結果真的把果凍吐出來。
史賓斯當時很鎮靜，他說這是在學校學到的。
噎到東西之處理方式----只要「 把手舉起來」！

２. 落枕
您偶爾早上起床會發現自己落枕了嗎？就是脖子疼痛。
一旦落枕您該怎麼辦？
一旦落枕時，只要將你的腳抬起來！把大腳姆指給掰開來，慢慢的以順時或逆時的方向按摩旋轉。

3. 腳抽筋
左腳抽筋時高高的舉起右手，
右腳抽筋時高高的舉起左手，馬上舒緩。

4. 腳發麻
若左腳麻了，用力甩你的右手掌，
若右腳麻了，則用力甩你的左手掌。

A story of a pair of wrinkled and "bruiseful" hand

One young man went to apply for a managerial position in a big company. He passed the initial interview, and now would meet the director for the final interview.

The director discovered from his CV that the youth's academic achievements were excellent. He asked, "Did you obtain any scholarships in school?" the youth answered "no".

" Was it your father who paid for your school fees?"

"My father passed away when I was one year old, it was my mother who paid for my school fees.” he replied.

" Where did your mother work?"

"My mother worked as clothes cleaner.”

The director requested the youth to show his hands. The youth showed a pair of hands that were smooth and perfect.

" Have you ever helped your mother wash the clothes before?"

"Never, my mother always wanted me to study and read more books. Besides, my mother can wash clothes faster than me.

The director said, "I have a request. When you go home today, go and clean your mother's hands, and then see me tomorrow morning.

The youth felt that his chance of landing the job was high. When he went back home, he asked his mother to let him clean her hands. His mother felt strange, happy but with mixed feelings, she showed her hands to her son.

The youth cleaned his mother's hands slowly. His tear fell as he did that. It was the first time he noticed that his mother's hands were so wrinkled, and there were so many bruises in her hands. Some bruises were so painful that his mother winced when he touched it.

This was the first time the youth realized that it was this pair of hands that washed the clothes everyday to enable him to pay the school fees. The bruises in the mother's hands were the price that the mother had to pay for his education, his school activities and his future.

After cleaning his mother hands, the youth quietly washed all the remaining clothes for his mother.

That night, mother and son talked for a very long time.

Next morning, the youth went to the director's office.

The Director noticed the tears in the youth's eyes, when he asked: "Can you tell me what have you done and learned yesterday in your house?"

The youth answered," I cleaned my mother's hand, and also finished cleaning all the remaining clothes'

“I know now what appreciation is. Without my mother, I would not be who I am today. By helping my mother, only now do I realize how difficult and tough it is to get something done on your own. And I have come to appreciate the importance and value of helping one’s family.

The director said, "This is what I am looking for in a manager. I want to recruit a person who can appreciate the help of others, a person who knows the sufferings of others to get things done, and a person who would not put money as his only goal in life.”

“You are hired.”

This young person worked very hard, and received the respect of his subordinates. Every employee worked diligently and worked as a team. The company's performance improved tremendously.

A child, who has been protected and habitually given whatever he wanted, would develop an "entitlement mentality" and would always put himself first. He would be ignorant of his parent's efforts. When he starts work, he assumes that every person must listen to him, and when he becomes a manager, he would never know the sufferings of his employees and would always blame others. For this kind of people, who may be good academically, they may be successful for a while, but eventually they would not feel a sense of achievement. They will grumble and be full of hatred and fight for more. If we are this kind of protective parents, are we really showing love or are we destroying our children instead?

You can let your child live in a big house, eat a good meal, learn piano, watch on a big screen TV. But when you are cutting grass, please let them experience it. After a meal, let them wash their plates and bowls together with their brothers and sisters. It is not because you do not have money to hire a maid, but it is because you want to love them in a right way. You want them to understand, no matter how rich their parents are, one day their hair will grow gray, same as the mother of that young person. The most important thing is your child learns how to appreciate the effort and experience the difficulty and learns the ability to work with others to get things done.