Coincidence

I am in the church now. Listen to the pastor, I don't know why. Erm, how to phrase this. My mind isn't here.

I didn't attend the Sunday service for two weeks. Something getting strange yet familiar. It's sort of so close yet so far. Very complicated feeling.

I think of coincidence. Think of myself, what happened, what made me became me now. I realize that there is no coincidence. Everything is meant to be happened.

Some people came and taught me something then they leave. Some they tried to stay, but I ought to admit, it was the best I could act back in the days for that situation. I have the regret in my mind always, but when I replay the situation in mind, I am certain that I will still do the same thing.

It's for the best of us. The scar was there. The hurt was there. I chose the least of two evils.

That someone still haunt me like all the times. And I still obsess over that someone either. But life's like this. No matter how you feel, it moves on. Days and nights, time never slow down. Young people old, old people older. Some locked up memories are just destined to be buried and being forget.

Nothing is coincidence. I am me today because of those past. What make me tomorrow is my action today. And I am so pressure sometimes that what can I do to make my tomorrow better. Later I figure it out. It's "be myself".

Love my life and live my life to the fullest. With or without fear. We can't stop being who we are because we are afraid. Life will bring those bad things back to us until we can handle them, or defeat them.

That someone still exist in my life. But I left it aside first. I don't know how long it gonna stay. But I hope when it leave, I can be a better person.

The fire still burn within.

Once again, Nothing is coincidence.