Endless desire

Let's make it this way. I am devastated again.

Just now I was withdrawing the cash from the atm. And then I get the receipt to see how much balance I left in my bank account. Pathetically, it's little. Little until I knew and I know that it won't help me survive through this month.

And why I felt that way? Because I understand how greedy I am and how many temptations out there, and not to mention that I have so many desire within.

I think of a new laptop, a new hardisk, a new cooler pad, a new handphone, a new car, a new room, a new job, yea, endless desire. Cannot satisfied with the current situation. All of the above I understand that I will get them one day, and all they need is just money. The money that I will be able to earn or save one day too.

But, the most important thing I deduced during my shower is that, even I got all those that I wished for earlier on, I won't be happy for long too. I will ask for more, the depth of desire getting deeper. Again, endless desire.

I don't know, I am confused now. Like so dead now, what should I look up to? Who should I look up to? What should I do next?

At last, I think what I need now is sleep.

Goodnight.